It occurred to me the other day that there are millions of people — probably billions— hungry for a greater and better life. I am one of them.
Having been touched, over and over again this lifetime by something greater (MUCH greater!) than my own puny consciousness, I am definitely not atheistic or agnostic. I know there is a vast intelligence at work here. But I am also under no illusions that this Source Intelligence—this Abstract Unifying Life Force, for lack of a better way to describe It —is understandable or definable by the human mind.
And so we bring God down to our level. We make this abstract unknowable intelligent force into a BEING in the sky. Or worse, a BIG WHITE MAN IN THE SKY. And then we do what men (and women) of all colors do: We judge one another. We pass laws to govern behavior based upon what we assume God must want (as if a Supreme Intelligence even had any wants!) and then break them and pay money to have our sins absolved at the nearest drive-thru confessional.
We perform all kinds of heinous acts in “the name of God” (which the most tuned in of prophets understood as I AM THAT I AM. Well, yay for this abstraction!!!!! And we give a white beard to I AM THAT I AM?????) And then we feel righteous as we look at the burning cities and bloody bodies, smug in our certitude that “God mandates” the destruction of the infidel.
Puleeze … the infidel R US … all of us.
Striving after God is impossible. Understanding truth is impossible. Trusting in God is impossible, because living as who we are makes it impossible.
I wanted to write about this today. I wanted to write about my own lack of trust in God. My realization that, as a human being, my default programming has been to NOT trust in an unseen, unknowable and unfathomable Intelligence. Yearn for it, yes. Trust it? No.
Therefore I seek … and do not find. Because why would I want to find that which I do not trust?
I was pondering how to state this and explain what to do about it in a 500-words-or-less blog this morning. It seemed impossible. And then a dear friend emailed me this:
“All aims and ends and ideals and goals and ideologies, religions and systems of improvement and betterment, are lies. Beware of them. Recognize the fact that, as you are, you are a lie. Manipulated, cultivated by others.
Striving after truth is a distraction and a postponement. It is the lie’s way to hide. See the lie, look deep into the lie of your personality. Because to see the lie is to cease to lie. No longer to lie is to seek no more for any truth … there is no need.
The moment the lie disappears, truth is there in all its beauty and radiance. In the seeing of the lie it disappears, and what is left is the truth.”
And THAT is the answer. Seek the lie, not the truth. In the undoing of the lie, God is revealed.
There – 528 words.
Thank you OSHO.